Big old city;

Exams in less than a week // Time to get my motivation back // I need to get my shit together // God bless me. 

Happy Legal Day

Back with a more happy post hehe. So yes, i'm gonna talk about my 18th! :) Glad to have spent it with the closest people in my life. Thanks for the countless number of surprises that night. :') to think we met a cute guy along the way... Rex HAHAHAHA.

And this was the other day when we sent Dav & CK to TNT! So proud of them doing the work of God in that country! :)

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So basically i did the 20 facts thing on my Instagram and only after that i've realised more facts about myself which i'm just going to share it here.
1. I'm a really awkward person (I try to be all cray cray to make myself high so i'll be less awkward LOL)
2. I hate making new friends. Because i'm awkward you see it links..
3. I'm secretly an introvert. And that's why i don't like making new friends.
4. I tend to overthink everything and that links to my next fact..
5. I'm insecure. Like really insecure.
6. I rather spend money on others than myself.
7. I find it awkward to go out with another person, unless it's my best friends. Therefore 3 is a good number.
8. I tend to feel left out very easily. LOL.
9. I tend to distance myself from guys once i realised i'm too close. Unless he's my best friend. Which i only have 1.
10. I think that i'm a slut if i move on very fast. LOL.

And that's about it. For now i think. Hehe.

xx

Emotional wreck;

As the title states... Yeah I've been an emotional wreck for the past week. I thought I got over it. No wait, I was doing fine. (Hopefully) maybe not. Just trying to put everything at the back of my head and pretend not to care. Yeah probably.

The only thing I don't understand is, how much I was willing to sacrifice. I gave it my all. I really did.   I gave everything I could. But it still wasn't enough to make you stay. I really did try giving everything. Really. Now my heart just hurts so bad. And I have to pretend like I'm okay.. I don't know how much longer I can stand this pain until I find a release.

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On a side note, my birthday post will be up once I'm done with my emotional year. Or so. Or once I feel pretend-happy enough.

xx

Putting my defenses up.

Just a few more days to the 11th. I've been thinking a little too much tonight.

What would it be of us, if this never happened. 
What happened to celebrating many more valentine's days & monthsaries. 
Or even anniversaries. 
What would be of us if this never happened?